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I Miss My Little Kittenbubus
3:41 p.m. -- 2004-06-17

Okay why don't we all forget about my last entry. =D It is not applicable any longer [I mean I don't feel that way, not "he got in touch" (even though I kinda wish) oh stop.]

The verses italicized in the previous entry, I forgot to mention, was a song by Annie Lennox called "Waiting in Vain," amd not an original poem... 0.0 Oh my God. Hahaha I am not capable of writing poems that sound like *that*! =p

Anyway.

Gollum is disgusting.

Currently watching ROTK. What I don't particularly like about this film is that too many of the good guys died. =( ARGH. I hate it!!!!

What i love about Rohan is the glory that I see everytime they arrive at the battle. Their horns that resounded throughout the field that brought hope to the despairing Gondorians when they heard it. I can just imagine what they were feeling, overwhelmed with the sheer number of the enemy and without an ally in sight... their gate breached, the city almost in ruins... and suddenly with the rising of the sun came the sound of horns, a sound familiar to men... aid! At last hope reborn and elation at the knowledge that the city's doom is after all not inevitable... knowing that they still have a fighting chance of life! I cannot describe the way I feel... I feel so repressed ARGH.

I knew they were losing hope, if they haven't already lost hope. They were so few to begin with, against like more than ten thousand ugly little things called orcs.

I want to be in a battle! I mean... I want to fight a physical form of evil, if you know what I mean. I want to feel the blood rushing through my veins, the power in my arms[assuming that I were a man (a handsome and tall one)], the will to bring down anything and anyone that would dare threaten those I love... knowing that I bring hope to those oppressed and falling before The Enemy. I want to strike fear in the enemies' hearts. To tell them with my blade that their evil hearts will soon stop beating, that they deserve our (my army's) wrath for slaughtering my kind! To have a courage so powerful that it overcomes my fear of death... To answer the summons of my leader and ride to the tune of triumphant horns...

I have the dreams of a medieval squire, what's wrong with me? 0.o

At the same time I want to be in that breached, helpless/hopeless city and hear those horns/trumpets at the break of dawn just as the orcs/enemies come swarming in. My heart would probably burst of relief and happiness.

No hope No hope No hope No hope, I think. "Run for your lives!" my leader cries. "Retreat!" and then suddenly I hear a blare of trumpets and look east then there they are... an unexpected army of 6,000 horsepower riding in to redeem us.

Happy.

I am so damn sporadic and unorganized that I can't put my thoughts into order long enough to write them down coherently.

*click me!* WEe stars! =p~

Happy happy happy happy (!)

Damn I hate those oliphants.

My poor evil Arabian-ish fiends.

Or maybe I'd wanna be part of Aragorn's company? Suprise the enemy!!! WEEE!!! Jump out of the big boats and murder them murderous bastards who massacred my people and defiled my lands!!!!

I love Merry and Pippin. They're so nice and happy and they love each other so much. Pure, unadulterated and innocent love.

I hate Father Salvi.

Sometimes I think I don't belong to this age. I'd rather be in Spanish Period Philippines, or Medieval Europe, or Dynastic China, or Ancient Egypt. I despise the world/pop culture and the almost total domination of the US over everything both tangible and intangible. I adore the individuality of every historical people. I embrace the former equality of both the east and the west, without any inferior race (the east/Asia) unlike today in which the Western world is more advanced and in control of everything while the eatern countries suffer their exploitation and starve in poverty.

I want to canoe in the Nile!

I want to jump over waterfalls! (be Native American before Europeans destroyed their race)

I want to live in a castle in Scotland during the medieval times when England didn't conquer it yet and almost destroy its' culture!

I want to have a clan that begins with a "Mac" or an "O'" (Ireland).

OKay should I stop now? Haha.

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