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I Hate Slow Internet
12:10 a.m. -- 2005-05-29

I am so unreasonably pissed today at my parent(s) because they
don’t bring us out anymore. I mean out of the country vacationing. ARGH. They
go everywhere and they never bring their kids around. Except sa Bora pero
TWOfriggingDAYS lang yun noh, walang kwenta, useless, burat. And my mom’s
doctor friends bring their kids around during international conferences and I’m
stuck here in this stinky hot country. NOT that I hate the Philippines, it’s
just that I need a break from it and its problems sometimes. Sometimes I feel
like this country’s going nowhere nga eh. Nakakainis kasi when you think about
those people who died just to give us our freedom… we don’t deserve it pala.
75% Filipinos (in my opinion) have no work ethics nor do they practice proper
hygiene. More than ¾ of the Philippines think littering is okay and do it. I
get so ANNOYED talaga when people litter, it’s this unreasonable sporadic fury.
It I had the power lang to murder people I see littering with sheer willpower,
I would. I don’t care if it’s not their fault that they are unaware that the
environment needs care. Buti nga other people clean up after them. They should
be smart enough to realize that if they keep it up, they will be over their
heads in their own garbage. They just don’t frigging think of the fucking
consequences God I am getting so pissed right now. Will they wait until the
garbage reaches their knees before disposing responsibly. Fucking assholes.

 

TAX
EVASION. Is it even a crime because the taxes we pay end up in corrupt
officials’ pockets anyway. So both the evaders and officials are wrong.
That is so screwed up. Sometimes I just want to eliminate the Philippines from
my head because it’s so frustrating that we could be so great, that we
have so much potential but the bad in our country is pulling everyone down.
I HATE IT. There are good leaders but they just aren’t popular
enough to be elected. There is an abundance of resources but some
assholes exploit and some citizens accept bribes and allow the exploitation and
some people are just too lazy to maximize everything that we have. [run-on but
I don’t care]

 

People keep encouraging me to take
up law but I don’t think I want to or can because I abhor our
judicial system. I might just end up killing myself because I might fall
prey to the unfairness of Philippine law. I don’t believe in the
system so why should I work to be part of it?

I KNOW I sound like such a whine-o
as Gideon calls me, but whatever. Hate me and you’re judgmental. Haha. it’s
just one of those entries in which I pour out my angst and hotheadedness. Plus
I know I sound like such an ingrate but I just felt like this kanina but I KNOW
that I’m lucky to have my parents. I just don’t feel it right now because I’m
jealous of the daughters of my mom’s friend because they got to go with their
mom to the States but I didn’t get to go. RAR.

 

Eto pa. I realized that I am an abusive friend/person so
watch out. Kasi if you wronged me I will hold a grudge and it won’t go away and
I will FRY you to a point that you don’t want to be my friend anymore and I
will hate you forever. I overreact eh. Sheesh. What’s wrong with me. May pagkaimpokrita
din ako, noh.

 

SOME PEOPLE IN MY BATCH HAVE THIS
SCREWED UP SUPERIORITY COMPLEX THAT MAKES ME WANT WRING THEIR NECKS. They think
they’re better than everyone else and look down their noses at “lower” people.
NAKAKAINIS. Akala nila kung sino sila. Kahit ganun ako minsan di ko
naman pinapakita, di ko nilalantad at hindi naman ganun kaextreme pero yung iba
talaga sarap sakalin eh. AKALA NYO KUNG SINO KAYO.

 

I feel so violent. I just want to grab a machine gun and kill
people. Yun lang. Sorry kung galit ako sa entry na ‘to.

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