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» I am eighteen years old. This diary is for my SECRET posts which NOBODY is supposed to see. It's my obsolete diary which I update in times of ANGST and weirdness. So please. Give me my privacy. 0=)

»loves: BORACAY! :D too many to mention. Books. Vacation. frisbee? high grades! music, clothes, family (sometimes) high school balls, travel, biking, clean air, history, old buildings

»hates: assholes, waiting, being broke, being ugly, being stupid, being mean, mayabang people, low grades, KABABUYAN, people who are full of themselves, desperation

»feeling:
lala

»reads: romance :D

napikon ako (after 5 months)
12:08 a.m. -- 2006-08-05

PM: i know what you're thinking. you're so mean. "pride kills everything" luckily for me, i've learned that lesson a long time ago... and all i wanted to do was to keep in touch with a friend. i know you'll ignore this one cause like i said "pride kills everything"
Juls: THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE
Juls: stop it
PM: it makes perfect sense.
Juls: ok whatever
Juls: to you
PM: but i'll stop if that's what you really want. i'm not dumb you know
Juls: YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I'M THINKING
Juls: WHAT PRIDE ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT
PM: you'll just make me run after you for as long as you want and look down and laugh at me in the process
Juls: i'm NOT making you run after me
Juls: have i been encouraging you?
Juls: NO
Julienne Raboca: what the hell are you talking about anyway
PM: hahaha... now i know. i'm just waiting for you to say that 2 letter word
PM: this time it worked

i didn't reply.

PM: you can call me stupid or even pathetic. but please if its not too much to ask before you ridicule me with your friends, don't forget about the goodtimes we had(if you think there is any) cause i won't
PM: i'm just trying to make up for all the things that i didn't do okay please don't get mad at me.
PM: please say something
Juls: CAN YOU STOP UNLOADING YOUR EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE ON ME
Juls: i'm getting really fed up and frustrated
PM: i have to know why
Juls: WHY WHAT
PM: why youre getting fed up and frustrated
Juls: BECAUSE YOU'RE SO KULIT
Juls: AND DESPERATE
Juls: you know what
Juls: ok just stop
PM: what's so bad at being desperate??? hhaha, sorry can't help myself. hahah don't worry i'll stop already

PM (8/5/2006 11:51:17 AM): i really don't care about the shame associated with desperation basta i will never let my pride get in the way. and i will always be honest when it comes to you. even if you're mad, even when you think i'm desperate and pathetic, even when you ignore me, even if you're laughing at me...

PUTANGINA akala ko titigil ka na???????????????? WE SHARED NOTHING. Why the fuck are you so emotional about this.

frankly, i am SO FED UP WITH THIS IDIOT.

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