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»feeling:
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»reads: romance :D

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1:47 a.m. -- 2007-12-13

November 10, 2007: 8:39PM

i feel so lucky. wow.

i remember when i first learned your name. i made sure i remembered it; i was kind of exhilarated that i finally knew what your name was after all that time( of seeing you, not knowing you, speculating about you...)

when i'd see you in school after we met, you just saying "hi" thrilled me beyond imagination. i was ecstatic that you remembered me. i can't believe you noticed me as well before we ever met. i had always thought that i was invisible to you.

sigh. being with you today was magical. :) [oh God am i getting cheesy.] i never really thought how things would be if i spent time with you, because i never thought it could actually happen. and now that i have spent time with you, i'm more convinced (and confused) than ever.

i wonder if this feeling will pass?

you're fickle. I'M fickle. will i still feel this way about you in a month's time? i have to wait. i think you might be someone who could wait for me. that makes a world of difference. it makes me want to get on my knees.

we could be perfect for each other. it's so possible that it's scary. and wonderful. why me? why did you choose me? don't you know that everyone's in love with you?

i'm so lucky :)

i wish i were free to love you.

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